I kind of feel like I want to get rid of all my posts & start over
It's my birthday again & somehow that word implies getting to start over fresh and clean and new, but it doesn't and maybe that's why it's so disappointing every year
& the not getting what you want
& nobody picks up the phone because they don't have time to take you out & don't want to say it in person
So I'm going to write more, and be better, and look up.